In the beginning I disliked studying the meaning of terror. This was a sad obligation. However, I had discovered the existence of a wild conscience in the biggest part of the human brain, which generates mental illnesses that end up in terror.
I had to be able to fight absurdity without losing my human conscience. I also had to become more sensitive. When I was a young adult I was insensitive and cruel, but I couldn’t understand this hidden truth.
I related the knowledge given to me by the unconscious mind to the knowledge I could acquire with the experiences I had in life, and to the knowledge I could have by reading numerous scientific books about many different scientific fields. Everything was related, and everything confirmed the same truths.
One of the most important facts in my life biography is the fact that my father was schizophrenic. He was very generous and kind with me because I looked like him, but he was a monster with everyone else. When I decided to abandon my country (Brazil) and live in Greece (where I have many relatives because my parents are Greek) I didn’t meet my father during eleven years. I got married, I had a son, and many things changed in my life.
When I went back to Brazil for a visit and I met him again, I verified that he had lost his mind. His house was completely dirty, but he didn’t mind living there.
He used to stay in a five stars hotel when I was a teen and my parents got divorced. He still had money, but he had completely lost his human conscience, even though he could work normally. He paid for my room in a luxurious hotel in his city when I told him that I couldn’t stay at his house the way it was. There was trash everywhere, but my father got used with what was dirty.
My father’s mental illness was the main reason why I could discover how to cure schizophrenia.
Another fact that was very important in my life was the psychosis of one of my best friends, Arnold, who put an end to his own life when he was 26-years-old. He fought his mental illness for five years under the heavy medications given by his psychiatrist, but he was not helped with them.
Arnold seemed to be balanced and intelligent when we were teens and we had a gang. He had the best parents of the world, and two very kind sisters. He didn’t seem to be someone who could someday lose his mind.
However, a certain day he started breaking everything in his house and hitting his sisters. He was interned in a clinic and he had electroshock therapy. He never recuperated his human conscience again. He became idiotic. His words didn’t make sense.
Arnold’s case was a very important lesson for me. I had to be very careful if I didn’t want to end up like him.
I also understood that I had to discover how to prevent craziness, before someone would lose their human conscience like Arnold.
The third example next to me was the case of one of my uncles; the only person in the family who had noticed my extraordinary literary talent. My uncle Leonid became hysteric when he lost his position as a consul. He started drinking (alcohol) without stopping.
We had many conversations before his hysteria, and after it. I had met him when I was 16-years-old in my first visit to Europe. Anyone could predict that he wouldn’t have a good end. He was an extravagant exhibitionist.
I met him again when I was 19-years-old and he was mentally ill. He looked like a beggar. He had hysteric crises. However, he had the courage to keep living after his big failure.
He loved my poems. He used to play the guitar and sing. However, he did many strange things like walking barefoot in the streets of Athens during summertime, besides drinking too much.
My uncle’s case showed me the tragic destiny of those who visibly inherit a powerful anti-conscience. He was too absurd, besides being very intelligent.
I should also mention the fact that I suffered from a tragic car accident when I was 15-years-old and the friend who was next to me in the car suddenly died, while she was only 21-years-old. Since then, I had to face the death of many young friends and relatives who were close to me like her. I studied their live biographies and I had information about the reasons why they had to die in my dreams.
I had to understand the meaning of terror, and the meaning of death. Everything completed my studies about the meaning of dreams and their healing power. I had to learn the dark side of the truth in order to understand how to put an end to all mental illnesses and to the terror they generate.